Richey James Edwards var mannen som sto bak det meste av Manic Street Preachers ideologi. Mannen har vært borte i over 10 år nå, siden han gikk ut av hotellet sitt den 1. februar 1995, og ingen vet hvor han ble av. Folk har påstått at de har sett ham i all verdens land, og enda har ikke de gamle bandmedlemmene og vennene hans gitt opp håpet. De har laget en konto hvor de har puttet royalties for alle sangene han skrev, i håp om at han en dag vil komme tilbake. Mannen var en av 90-tallets største diktere, spør du meg, og jeg vil gjerne minnes ham for alt det fantastiske han skrev.
Richey ble tidlig med i bandet som rytmegitarist og tekstforfatter. Han var en ufattelig lærd person for å være på hans alder, og mye av det som kjennetegner sangene hans er jo nettopp hans mange referanser til historiske hendelser og personer. I et par av sangene består vers og refreng av navnene til diktatore og massemordere, etterfulgt av små bemerkelser og tanker rundt dem. Da hinter jeg selvfølgelig til sangene "Revol" og "Archives of Pain" fra albumet "The Holy Bible".
En hendelse som sjokkerte hele verden, og som mange kanskje har hørt om, er Richeys selvskading under et intervju. Personen som intervjuet dem, kalte dem falske "posere" som ikke sto for noe av det de sang om. Det resulterte i at Richey tok et barberblad og skar "4 real" inn i armen. Dette var blant de første tegnene på at Richey kanskje slet en anelse med psykiske problemer. Men på mange måter var han også en veldig reflektert kar. Dette sitatet fant jeg nylig mens jeg lette etter et bilde av ham, som jeg bare følte jeg måtte ha med fordi jeg føler meg så igjen:
"You get respect in society if you are aggressive. If you fight then people respect you. If you fight back, people like you for that as well. When I’ve been beaten up, if I’ve been in a pub doing nothing wrong, the fact I chose not to fight back, that I would never throw a punch back, people say I’m weak. I don’t think that’s a weak thing at all. I think why should I descend to their level? If I’ve done nothing wrong, throwing a punch back makes me as bad and corrupt as them. As evil as them, as stupid as them."
Nå vil jeg ikke gå dypt inn på probleme Richey hadde, men heller ære ham for noe av det fantastiske poesien han skrev. Her er et par utdrag fra noen av sangene han skrev
"4st 7lb"
Days since I last pissed
Cheeks sunken and despaired
So gorgeous sunk to six stone
Lose my only remaining home
See my third rib appear
A week later all my flesh disappears
Stretching taut, cling-film on bone
I’m getting better
Karen says I’ve reached my target weight
Kate and Emma and Kristin know it’s fake
Problem is diet’s not a big enough word
I wanna be so skinny that I rot from view
I want to walk in the snow
And not leave a footprint
I want to walk in the snow
And not soil its purity
Stomach collapsed at five
Lift up my skirt my sex is gone
Naked and lovely and 5 stone 2
May I bud and never flower
My vision’s getting blurred
But I can see my ribs and I feel fine
My hands are trembling stalks
And I can feel my breasts are sinking
Mother tries to choke me with roast beef
And sits savouring her sole Ryvitta
That’s the way you’re built my father said
But I can change, my cocoon shedding
I want to walk in the snow
And not leave a footprint
I want to walk in the snow
And not soil its purity
Kate and Kristin and Kit Kat
All things I like looking at
Too weak to fuss, too weak to die
Choice is skeletal in everybody’s life
I choose my choice, I starve to frenzy
Hunger soon passes and sickness soon tires
Legs bend, stockinged I am Twiggy
And I don’t mind the horror that surrounds me
Self-worth scatters, self-esteem’s a bore
I long since moved to a higher plateau
This discipline’s so rare so please applaud
Just look at the fat scum who pamper me so
Yeah 4 stone 7, an epilogue of youth
Such beautiful dignity in self-abuse
I’ve finally come to understand life
Through staring blankly at my navel
"Faster"
I am an architect, they call me a butcher
I am a pioneer, they call me primitive
I am purity, they call me perverted
Holding you but I only miss these things when they leave
I am idiot drug hive, the virgin, the tattered and the torn
Life is for the cold made warm and they are just lizards
Self-disgust is self-obsession honey and I do as I please
A morality obedient only to the cleansed repented
I am stronger than Mensa, Miller and Mailer
I spat out Plath and Pinter
I am all the things that you regret
A truth that washes that learnt how to spell
The first time you see yourself naked you cry
Soft skin now acne, foul breath, so broken
He loves me truly this mute solitude I’m draining
I know I believe in nothing but it is my nothing
Sleep can’t hide the thoughts splitting through my mind
Shadows aren’t clean, false mirrors, too many people awake
If you stand up like a nail then you will be knocked down
I’ve been too honest with myself
I should have lied like everybody else
I am stronger than Mensa, Miller and Mailer
I spat out Plath and Pinter
I am all the things that you regret
A truth that washes that learnt how to spell, learnt to spell
So damn easy to cave in, man kills everything
So damn easy to cave in, man kills everything
So damn easy to cave in, man kills everything
So damn easy to cave in, man kills everything
"Mausoleum"
Wherever you go I will be carcass
Whatever you see will be rotting flesh
Humanity recovered glittering etiquette
Answers her crime with mausoleum rent
Regained your self-control
And regained your self-esteem
And blind your success inspires
And analyse, despise and scrutinise
Never knowing what you hoped for
And safe and warm but life is so silent
For the victims who have no speech
In their shapeless guilty remorse
Obliterates your meaning
Obliterates your meaning
Obliterates your meaning
Your meaning, your meaning
No birds, no birds
The sky is swollen black
And no birds, no birds
Holy mass of dead insect
Come and walk down memory lane
No one sees a thing but they can pretend
Life eternal scorched, grass and trees
For your love nature has haemorrhaged
Regained your self-control
And regained your self-esteem
And blind your success inspires
And analyse, despise and scrutinise
Never knowing what you hoped for
And safe and warm but life is so silent
For the victims who have no speech
In their shapeless guilty remorse
Obliterates your meaning
Obliterates your meaning
Obliterates your meaning
Your meaning, your meaning
No birds, no birds
The sky is swollen black
And no birds, no birds
Holy mass of dead insect
I wanted to
Rub the human face in its own vomit
And force it to look in the mirror
And life can be as important as death
But so mediocre when there’s no air, no light and no hope
Prejudice burns brighter when it’s all we have to burn
The world lances youth’s lamb-like winter.
